If at First You Dont Succeed, Try, Try Again by Zen Cho


If at First You Dont Succeed, Try, Try Again
Title : If at First You Dont Succeed, Try, Try Again
Author :
Rating :
ISBN : -
Language : English
Format Type : ebook
Number of Pages : 30
Publication : First published November 29, 2018
Awards : Hugo Award Best Novelette (2019), Locus Award Best Novelette (2019)

A hapless imugi is determined to attain the form of a full-fledged dragon and gain entry to the gates of heaven. For a long time, things don't go well. Then, it meets a girl. The B&N Sci-Fi & Fantasy Blog presents an original short story by Campbell Award-nominated author Zen Cho.


If at First You Dont Succeed, Try, Try Again Reviews


  • carol.

    Review permanently at
    https://wordpress.com/post/clsiewert....

    Sweet. A touch uneven but a solid heart. Chinese dragons, karma, transformation, all rolled in to a modernized version of a traditional morality tale.

    Four pearls

    Story:
    https://www.barnesandnoble.com/blog/s...

    A short sequel at (thanks, Cathy (cathepsut)):
    https://zencho.org/head-of-a-snake-ta...

  • karen

    WELCOME TO DECEMBER PROJECT!

    this explanation/intro will be posted before each day’s short story. scroll down to get to the story-review.

    this is the FIFTH year of me doing a short story advent calendar as my december project. for those of you new to me or this endeavor, here’s the skinny: every day in december, i will be reading a short story that is 1) available free somewhere on internet, and 2) listed on goodreads as its own discrete entity. there will be links provided for those of you who like to read (or listen to) short stories for free, and also for those of you who have wildly overestimated how many books you can read in a year and are freaking out about not meeting your 2020 reading-challenge goals. i have been gathering links all year when tasty little tales have popped into my feed, but i will also accept additional suggestions, as long as they meet my aforementioned 1), 2) standards, because i have not compiled as many as usual this year.

    IN ADDITION, this may be the last year i do this project since GR has already deleted the pages for several of the stories i've read in previous years without warning, leaving me with a bunch of missing reviews and broken links, which makes me feel shitty. because i don't have a lot of time to waste, i'm not going to bother writing much in the way of reviews for these, in case gr decides to scrap 'em again. 2020 has left me utterly wrung out and i apologize for what's left of me. i am doing my best.

    DECEMBER 13: IF AT FIRST YOU DON'T SUCCEED, TRY, TRY AGAIN - ZEN CHO

    this one grew into five stars for me. it didn't start out that way—in the beginning, i was getting kinda bored and bogged down in the folktaliness of it; the story of an imugi studying the Way in order to ascend and become a dragon &yadda. but that all changed when i got to this part here:

    Byam turned for its last look at the earth as an imugi. The lake shone in the sun. It had been cold, and miserable, and lonely, full of venomous water snakes that bit Byam’s tail. Byam had been dying to get away from it.

    But now, it felt a swell of affection. When it returned as a dragon, it would bless the lake. Fish would overflow its banks. The cows and pigs and goats would multiply beyond counting. The crops would spring out of the earth in their multitudes…

    A thin screechy noise was coming from the lake. When Byam squinted, it saw a group of little creatures on the western bank. Humans.

    One of them was shaking a fist at the sky. “Fuck you, imugi!”

    “Oh shit,” said Byam.


    once the story took on a more...contemporary tone, i absolutely loved it. to this imugi, i say: SAME—getting mired in frustration over not achieving one's goals, being thwarted by fate and happenstance despite prolonged efforts, hard work, ingenuity of approach, feeling foolish for having dreams, for wanting more, becoming accustomed to failure, accepting one's lot, resigned to making a life smaller than you'd hoped and finding happiness in this smaller life while still experiencing twinges of thwarted ambition—it is all very relatable.

    “Sometimes,” it said, “you try really hard and it’s not enough. You put in all you’ve got and you still never get where you thought you were meant to be...It hurts. Knowing it wasn’t enough, even when you gave it the best of yourself. But you get over it.”


    it's a crappy hand, knowing you have the potential to be a dragon but no matter how hard you try to punch through, people don't see you for what you are—or what you're trying so hard to become—and you end up stuck in the life of a goddamn worm.

    apparently there was a sequel to this story:
    Head of a Snake, Tail of a Dragon, which was available to read on the author's site until last may, and yet SOMEHOW the gr scrubbers haven't deleted its page even though they have deleted NINE of my advent-stories, but that's just FINE. i missed it by months, but considering it was available for two years, i only have myself to blame for not getting to it sooner. the story will become available once more, in a collection the author will be self-publishing, and as someone who does a lot of work for free—a situation which gives me a lot of the same feelings as byam the imugi—trying and trying and getting nowhere, and feeling like a failure—i get her decision because not getting paid for work, especially creative work, really sucks.

    sorry. seems i'm in a MOOD tonight.


    read it for free here


    DECEMBER 1: PG - COURTNEY SUMMERS

    DECEMBER 2: THE JUMPING MONKEY HILL - CHIMAMANDA NGOZI ADICHIE

    DECEMBER 3: ORIGIN STORY - T. KINGFISHER

    DECEMBER 4: THE GREAT SILENCE - TED CHIANG

    DECEMBER 5: A CLEAN SWEEP WITH ALL THE TRIMMINGS

    DECEMBER 6: BORED WORLD - ANDY WEIR

    DECEMBER 7: VAMPIRE - ROBERT COOVER

    DECEMBER 8: A STATEMENT IN THE CASE - THEODORA GOSS

    DECEMBER 9: STET - SARAH GAILEY

    DECEMBER 10: MARGOT'S ROOM: EMILY CARROLL

    DECEMBER 11: HORROR STORY - CARMEN MARIA MACHADO

    DECEMBER 12: TERRAIN - GENEVIEVE VALENTINE

    DECEMBER 14: GHOUL - GEORGE SAUNDERS

    DECEMBER 15: DURING THE DANCE - MARK LAWRENCE

    DECEMBER 16: CLEARING THE BONES - CELESTE NG

    DECEMBER 17: THE WAITER'S WIFE - ZADIE SMITH

    DECEMBER 18: DEMOLITION - FIONA MCFARLANE

    DECEMBER 19: NO PERIOD - HARRY TURTLEDOVE

    DECEMBER 20: DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE - GG

    DECEMBER 21: RUB-A-DUB-DUB - TONY MILLIONAIRE

    DECEMBER 22: HANSA AND GRETYL AND PIECE OF SHIT - REBECCA CURTIS

    DECEMBER 23: BRIDESICLE - WILL MCINTOSH

    DECEMBER 24: I, CTHULHU, OR, WHAT'S A TENTACLE-FACED THING LIKE ME DOING IN A SUNKEN CITY LIKE THIS (LATITUDE 47° 9' S, LONGITUDE 126° 43' W)? - NEIL GAIMAN

    DECEMBER 25: CHRISTMAS TALE - MARK LAWRENCE

    DECEMBER 26: THE MONSTERS OF HEAVEN - NATHAN BALLINGRUD

    DECEMBER 27: TWO DREAMS ON TRAINS - ELIZABETH BEAR

    DECEMBER 28: THE MARTIANS CLAIM CANADA - MARGARET ATWOOD

    DECEMBER 29: UNDER THE WAVE - LAUREN GROFF

    DECEMBER 30: MR. SALARY - SALLY ROONEY

    DECEMBER 31: A/S/L - EMMA CLINE


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  • Bradley

    This turned out to be a very cute fable. Or maybe a bit more than cute. :)

    It would be too easy to name the kind of story this is, but suffice to say, the Imugi, the mythological creature who would become a dragon, lost in frustration, gives up for a time to fall in love.

    I thought it was very charming. And heartfelt.

    Nommed for Hugo in '19.

  • Punk

    This novelette is about dragons, about wanting something, and about hard work, the kind of work that can take centuries and yet be disrupted by the smallest thing. It's about love, and partnership, and being who you are. And it's about trying to reach your dreams. Even if they change, even if you momentarily forget them, even if you feel like giving up.

    It's funny, queer, and tender, and the ending made my face kind of rainy? Don't know what that was about.

    Contains a brief reference to a consideration of suicide.

    You can
    read it at the B&N Sci-Fi & Fantasy Blog.

    And now there's a sequel, also free to read:
    Head of a Snake, Tail of a Dragon

  • Tadiana ✩Night Owl☽

    This pleasant novelette won the 2019 Hugo Award, and it’s free online. An imugi (a magical serpent that’s an earlier stage of a dragon, at least in this world’s mythology) wants nothing more than to become a full-fledged dragon and live in the heavens. Every thousand years the imugi, Byam, gets a chance to fly up into the sky and try to achieve its transformation, but something always goes wrong.

    The third time, when Byam’s transformation is interrupted by someone taking a selfie, Byam decides to give up. Or eat the person who so rudely interrupted it. Maybe both. But something goes wrong with that plan too...

    It’s a soft 4 stars for me (I tend to think it won the Hugo for its queer representation as much as anything else), but it has a good message. Which ... I mean, it’s right there in the title. :) But it’s not as simplistic as it might sound.

    Read it here:
    https://www.barnesandnoble.com/blog/s...

  • jade

    “who i am?” said byam. it was like a rock had lodged inside its throat. it was hard to speak past it. “an imugi, you mean. an earthworm with a dream.”

    what if you wanted something so badly you spent ages pursuing it, only to fail every single time?

    that’s the harsh reality for byam, an imugi (korean serpent or proto-dragon) looking to ascend to the celestial plane so it may finally transform into a dragon. and yet, something is always holding byam back, leading to much pain, frustration, and a bit of a grudge against humanity.

    this is a beautiful fairytale about preservation and dreams, starting in ancient times and moving all the way into our modern age. i was pleasantly surprised by this, not expecting from the way it started off to see selfies and hashtags eventually play a role in the narrative.

    it’s a very charming tale, and byam’s commentary on human society is often hilarious. there is such tragedy and fear of failure hidden in its character that it made me Emotional™ to the point where i shed a lonely tear when this novelette came to its end.

    also, i’m a sucker for mythical creature + human relationships. and especially for a short story, this (queer) relationship had enough warmth, depth, and fun to appeal to me in every way.

    check it out yourself and
    read it here!

    4.0 stars.

  • may ➹

    absolutely HUMILIATING that I teared up over a short story about a silly little dragon. HUMILIATING

  • Sara

    Sometimes,” it said, “you try really hard and it’s not enough. You put in all you’ve got and you still never get where you thought you were meant to be. But at least you tried. Some people never try.

    A novellette about an imugi trying to ascend, through a lot of perseverance and failed attempts. Although short, I enjoyed this and felt it carries a strong yet hopeful message. It was rather tongue in cheek too.

  • Dennis

    Now this turned out to be rather sweet.

    The story of an Imugi* trying and constantly failing to become a full-fledged dragon began as a funny, almost hilarious tale.

    But soon I was starting to feel for the hapless creature. And then the story took a quite surprising turn and became a very tender tale about empathy and trying to find your own way to happiness.

    3.5 stars

    Can be read for free here:
    https://www.barnesandnoble.com/blog/s...

    There's also a short sequel, which I liked even better:

    https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/4...


    *Korean folk mythology states that most dragons were originally Imugis (이무기), or lesser dragons, which were said to resemble gigantic serpents.


    ***Winner of the 2019 Hugo Award for Best Novelette***

    ____________________________

    2019 Hugo Award Finalists

    Best Novel

    The Calculating Stars by Mary Robinette Kowal


    Record of a Spaceborn Few by Becky Chambers

    Revenant Gun by Yoon Ha Lee

    Space Opera by Catherynne M. Valente

    Spinning Silver by Naomi Novik

    Trail of Lightning by Rebecca Roanhorse

    Best Novella

    Artificial Condition by Martha Wells


    Beneath the Sugar Sky by Seanan McGuire

    Binti: The Night Masquerade by Nnedi Okorafor

    The Black God’s Drums by P. Djèlí Clark

    Gods, Monsters, and the Lucky Peach by Kelly Robson

    The Tea Master and the Detective by Aliette de Bodard

    Best Novelette

    If at First You Don’t Succeed, Try, Try Again by Zen Cho (Barnes & Noble Sci-Fi & Fantasy Blog)


    The Last Banquet of Temporal Confections by Tina Connolly (Tor.com)

    Nine Last Days on Planet Earth by Daryl Gregory (Tor.com)

    The Only Harmless Great Thing by Brooke Bolander (Tor.com)

    The Thing About Ghost Stories by Naomi Kritzer (Uncanny Magazine)

    When We Were Starless by Simone Heller (Clarkesworld Magazine)

    Best Short Story

    The Court Magician by Sarah Pinsker (Lightspeed Magazine)

    The Rose MacGregor Drinking and Admiration Society by T. Kingfisher (Uncanny Magazine)

    The Secret Lives of the Nine Negro Teeth of George Washington by P. Djèlí Clark (Fireside Magazine)

    STET by Sarah Gailey (Fireside Magazine)

    The Tale of the Three Beautiful Raptor Sisters, and the Prince Who Was Made of Meat by Brooke Bolander (Uncanny Magazine)

    A Witch’s Guide To Escape: A Practical Compendium Of Portal Fantasies by Alix E. Harrow (Apex Magazine)


    Best Series
    • The Centenal Cycle by
    Malka Older
    • The Laundry Files by
    Charles Stross
    • Machineries of Empire by
    Yoon Ha Lee
    • The October Daye Series by
    Seanan McGuire
    • The Universe of Xuya by
    Aliette de Bodard
    Wayfarers by
    Becky Chambers


    Best Related Work
    Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

    Astounding: John W. Campbell, Isaac Asimov, Robert A. Heinlein, L. Ron Hubbard, and the Golden Age of Science Fiction by Alec Nevala-Lee
    • The Hobbit Duology (a documentary in three parts), written and edited by Lindsay Ellis and Angelina Meehan

    An Informal History of the Hugos: A Personal Look Back at the Hugo Awards 1953-2000 by Jo Walton
    • The Mexicanx Initiative Experience at Worldcon 76 by Julia Rios, Libia Brenda, Pablo Defendini, and John Picacio

    Ursula K. Le Guin: Conversations on Writing by Ursula K. Le Guin with David Naimon

    Best Graphic Story

    Abbott, written by Saladin Ahmed, art by Sami Kivelä, colors by Jason Wordie, letters by Jim Campbell

    Black Panther: Long Live the King, written by Nnedi Okorafor and Aaron Covington, art by André Lima Araújo, Mario Del Pennino, and Tana Ford

    Monstress, Volume 3: Haven, written by Marjorie Liu, art by Sana Takeda


    On a Sunbeam by Tillie Walden

    Paper Girls, Volume 4
    , written by Brian K. Vaughan, art by Cliff Chiang, colors by Matt Wilson, letters by Jared K. Fletcher

    Saga, Volume 9, written by Brian K. Vaughan, art by Fiona Staples

    Best Art Book

    The Book of Earthsea: The Complete Illustrated Edition illustrated by Charles Vess, written by Ursula K. Le Guin


    Daydreamer’s Journey: The Art of Julie Dillon by Julie Dillon

    Dungeons & Dragons Art & Arcana: A Visual History by Michael Witwer, Kyle Newman, Jon Peterson, and Sam Witwer

    Spectrum 25: The Best in Contemporary Fantastic Art, editor John Fleskes

    Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse – The Art of the Movie by Ramin Zahed

    Tolkien: Maker of Middle-earth, editor Catherine McIlwaine

    Lodestar Award for Best Young Adult Book

    Children of Blood and Bone by Tomi Adeyemi (Henry Holt; Macmillan Children’s Books)


    The Belles by Dhonielle Clayton (Freeform / Gollancz)

    The Cruel Prince by Holly Black (Little, Brown / Hot Key Books)

    Dread Nation by Justina Ireland (Balzer + Bray)

    The Invasion by Peadar O’Guilin (David Fickling Books / Scholastic)

    Tess of the Road by Rachel Hartman (Random House / Penguin Teen)

  • Renegade ♥

    4 1/2 stars

    “Sometimes,” it said, “you try really hard and it’s not enough. You put in all you’ve got and you still never get where you thought you were meant to be. But at least you tried. Some people never try. They resign themselves to bamboozling monks and devouring maidens for all eternity.”

    Such a wise, funny, touching, and lovely tale...

    Image result for imugi

    The underlining in the excerpts is mine:

    But the eastern side was still reserved to beasts and spirits. There was plenty of space for an imugi to take off.

    The mountains around the lake said hello to Byam. (It was always safer to be polite to an imugi, since you never knew when it might turn into a dragon.) The sky above them was a pure light blue, dotted with clouds like white jade.

    Byam’s heart rose. It launched itself into the air, the sun warm on its back.

    ***

    For the first half-millennium or so, Byam could be confident of finding the solitude necessary for study. But more recently, there seemed to be more and more humans everywhere.

    Humans weren’t all bad. You couldn’t meditate your way through every doctrinal puzzle, and that was where monks proved useful. Of course, even the most enlightened monk was wont to be alarmed by the sudden appearance of a giant snake wanting to know what they thought of the Sage’s comments on water. Still, you could usually extract some guidance from them, once they stopped screaming.

    Image result for imugi

    A herd of cows was grazing by the bank, as though they were waiting for Byam.

    It only intended to eat one cow. It wanted to keep sharp for its ascension. Dragons probably didn’t eat much. All the dragons Byam had ever seen were svelte, with perfect scales, shining talons, silky beards.

    Unfortunately Byam wasn’t a dragon yet. It was hungry, and the cows smelled so good. Byam had one, and then another, and then a third, telling itself each time that this cow would be the last. Before it knew it, almost the whole herd was gone.


    ***

    But you had to get out of the water in order to ascend. It was impossible to exclude the possibility of being seen by humans, even in the middle of the ocean. It didn’t seem to bother them that they couldn’t breathe underwater; they still launched themselves onto the waves on rickety assemblages of dismembered trees. It was as if they couldn’t wait to get on to their next lives.

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    It hadn’t helped back then that the lake humans had named Byam for what it was: no dragon, but an imugi, a degraded being no better than the crawling beasts of the earth.

    But if, as Byam flashed across the sky, a witness saw a dragon… that was another matter. Heaven wasn’t immune to the pressures of public perception. It would have to recognise Byam then.

    The spirits of the wind and water were too hard to bluff; fish were too self-absorbed; and there was no hope of hoodwinking the sea dragons. But humans had bad eyesight, and a tendency to see things that weren’t there. Their capacity for self-deception was Byam’s best bet.

    ***

    Sometimes Byam felt like giving up. How could it make a dragon when it didn’t even know how to be one?

    To conquer self-doubt, it chanted the aphorisms of the wise:


    Nobody becomes a dragon overnight.

    Real dragons keep going.

    A dragon is only an imugi that didn’t give up.

    ***

    But there were consolations available to imugi who reconciled themselves to their fate. Like revenge.

    Image result for imugi

    But you couldn’t study something for 3,000 years without becoming interested in it for its own sake.

    “Tell me about your research,” said Byam.

    “What you said just now,” said the monk. “Did you not – ”

    Byam showed its teeth.

    “My research!” said the monk. “Let me tell you about it.”

    ***

    “It’s impressive,” she said. “That you’re so open to learning new things. If I were a celestial fairy, there’s no way I’d work so hard. I’d just lie around getting drunk and eating peaches all day.”

    “You have a skewed image of the life of a celestial fairy,” said Byam.


    Image result for imugi

    Byam bethought itself of the other creature that was important in their lives. "Did you tell the cat? Is that why it doesn’t like me?”

    “I’ve told you, I can’t actually talk to the cat,” said Leslie. (Which was a blatant lie, because she did it all the time, though it was true they had strange conversations, generally at cross-purposes.)


    ***

    Before, Byam had always thought that humans must be used to dying, since they did it all the time. But now it had got to know them better, it saw they had no idea how to deal with it.

    This was unfortunate, because Byam didn’t know either.


    ***

    “Am I not good enough as I am?”

    “Of course you’re good enough [...]. If you’re happy, then that’s fine. But you should know you can be anything you want to be. That’s all. I don’t want you to let fear hold you back.”


    Image result for imugi

    *** Much appreciation to Dennis for providing the link for this free story and now I will do the same for those who may also be interested:


    https://www.barnesandnoble.com/blog/s...

  • Trish

    I love dragons so of course I had to read this one, especially after this year's HUGOs.

    This is the story of an
    imugi named Byam, who is determined to attain the form of a full-fledged dragon, thus gaining entry to the gates of heaven.

    If at First You Don't Succeed, Try, Try Again won Best Novelette in 2019's HUGOs.

    It was a cute little story about perseverance and how life often isn't fair - a concept invented by humans, ironically enough. Nevertheless, giving up shouldn't be an option and wasn't for our protagonist. The story is also about finding out who you are, not just what.

    Moreover, there is a constant slightly humorous undertone that the author uses to flesh out this mythologically themed story with such unlikely elements as public opinion / judgment, tutoring (both in academia as well as selfworth) and sexuality.

    It was a cute little story that I enjoyed quite a lot (though it wasn't as good as its competition).

    You can read the story for free here:
    https://www.barnesandnoble.com/blog/s...

  • Cathy

    I cried like a baby at the end, five stars all the way! This story of an imugi (Korean folklore, lesser dragon in form of a large serpent), trying to become a fully-fledged dragon, went an very unexpected way! Silly, cute and lovely.

    Can be read for free here:
    https://www.barnesandnoble.com/blog/s...

    Also have a look at „Head of a Snake, Tail of a Dragon“, a short sequel:
    https://zencho.org/head-of-a-snake-ta...

  • Acqua

    This was the cutest story ever. About an imugi who is trying to become a dragon and the woman who falls in love with it (also, the imugi's human form is a woman, so... f/f!). It's about not seeing yourself as a failure, and about whether persistence is worth it.

    Also: if you like this story and you haven't read Aliette de Bodard's In the Vanishers' Palace yet... try it!

  • Peter Tillman

    An imugi who keeps trying to turn into a dragon (and failing) meets an astrophysics Ph.D and falls in love. Silly and sweet. Hugo award winner for best novelette (2019),
    https://www.barnesandnoble.com/blog/s...

    As in most shorts, I think it's better to go into this one cold. If you like Asian-flavored fantasy -- and/or dragons! -- this is the story for you. Highly recommended.

  • Lata

    4.5 stars. A story of an imugi striving toward dragonhood. Byam spends so very long studying the Way and trying to impress so that she can be transformed into a beautiful dragon from her current snake form. There are many near misses (and several monks frightened and cows eaten) but no dragonhood. Then, Byam meets a young woman and ends up falling in love.
    I loved this little tale. There's plenty of humour, and a beautiful little love story between Byam and Leslie.

  • Rachel

    Beautiful! I devoured this fantasy novelette one morning over breakfast. By turns humorous, fanciful, insightful, loving, and heartbreaking, it is a lovely tale.

    Per the blurb: "A hapless imugi is determined to attain the form of a full-fledged dragon and gain entry to the gates of heaven. For a long time, things don't go well. Then, it meets a girl." The imugi's human form is a woman, so also hooray for inclusive queer fantasy!

    Feeling melancholic at the ending, I was thrilled to learn that there is a sequel (also free to read) that gives an uplifting continuation to the story:
    https://zencho.org/head-of-a-snake-ta...

    Thank you, Antonella, for the wonderful recommendation!

    Highly recommend!!

  • César Bustíos

    “You have thousands of years,” said Leslie. “You shouldn’t just give up.” She looked Byam in the eye. “Don’t you still want to be a dragon?”

    Beautiful and creative.

  • Philip

    4.5ish stars.

  • Julie

    Last of the Hugo-nominated novelettes: a take on Korean mythology, with an imugi (mythical serpent) striving for thousands of years to ascend and become a proper celestial dragon. It features one of my favourite things, ie. a monstrous inhuman thing learning how to human (with a few funny missteps along the way) -- but in the end it's about perseverance, love, finding happiness in places that you didn't expect, and not giving up hope.

    3.5 stars. Read it for free here:
    https://www.barnesandnoble.com/blog/s...

  • Lost Planet Airman

    Fun. Twisty. Dragons.

  • Kam Yung Soh

    An interesting story about an imugi, an earth-bound creature who makes several attempts to ascend to heaven and become a dragon. But it is always bought back to earth by humans who see it and proclaim it to be an imugi, not a dragon.

    When its latest attempt is thwarted by a selfie taking woman, the imugi decides enough is enough and sets out to find the woman and devour her. But at the last moment, the imugi, disguised as a heavenly angel, becomes fascinated by the woman instead and strikes up a long term relationship with her. As time passes, it begins to forget it is an imugi and deepens their relationship.

    But in the end, it reveals its true self to her and she urges it to try to become a dragon one last time.

  • Jennifer (bunnyreads)

    I really liked this little short story.

    The first couple attempts Byam makes at ascension are a bit humorous but as the little Imugi continues to fail and her spirit gets beaten down, the story takes a quieter turn. It’s a thoughtful piece with a nice little message about life, love, dreams, and failure, letting people’s words keep you down and how they can raise you back up- especially when it’s someone who is important to you. Very nice.

  • Divine

    "Sometimes,” it said, “you try really hard and it’s not enough. You put in all you’ve got and you still never get where you thought you were meant to be. But at least you tried. Some people never try. "
    This was such a nice and comforting read. It divulges a simple tale yet manages to reinforce this adage beautifully.

  • roma

    god this was probably one of my favorite stories ever? it's so short and succinct also the sapphic feels

  • Lis Carey

    This fantasy story is a 2019 Hugo finalist for Best Novelette.

    Byam is an imguri, a kind of magical, giant worm, and it wants to become a dragon. It studies The Way, it consults monks, it works very hard, and it keeps trying.

    We see three attempts over three thousand years. Things are not going well for Byam.

    For its last attempt, the disrupting factor is a human woman, Leslie Han, who looks up, sees it, and says, "An imguri!"

    Byam is not inclined to forgive the sabotage. It sets out to find this new, unfamiliar kind of monk, and exact revenge

    What follows is unexpected, strange, sweet, and in the end, completely satisfying.

    Highly recommended.

  • Ron

    “You get used to being a failure. It was too early to tell her that.”

    Excellent. Based on Korean mythology, Cho draws the reader into the mind of an aspiring imugi. Aspiring to be what? That’s the story.

    “You couldn’t study something for 3,000 years without becoming interested in it for its own sake.”

    Sparse description augmented by the protagonist’s musings and dialogue with humans. Well done.

    “Couldn’t take it. Not now, not after … I’m not brave enough to fail again.” “I know.”

    (2019 Best Novelette Hugo Award Finalist, published by B&N SFF Originals)

  • Fani

    “Sometimes,” it said, “you try really hard and it’s not enough. You put in all you’ve got and you still never get where you thought you were meant to be. But at least you tried. Some people never try. "

    Well written story based on korean mythology about imugi. A lot of life message can find in this short story. I love how the ending really meaningfull even it's really short.

  • feux d'artifice

    CUUUUUUUTE
    If you're into queer immortal supernatural being in stupid love trying their hardest and learning to pick themselves up again and you love reading stories that make you cry and laugh all at once, read this post haste :DDDDDDD

  • Chessa

    I actually started this a few times and had a hard time engaging with Byam. But just keep going: once you meet Leslie the whole story comes together and now I am sitting here in a puddle of feelings feeling faintly offended at how fucking good this was.

  • Crowinator

    I received this story as part of the 2019 Hugo Voters Packet.